Ik wil jullie dit mooie getuigenis niet onthouden wat kwam als reactie op een topic over extreme holiness:
For many years I thought like this… I could do it. If I just tried hard enough…. if I prayed enough…. if I evangelized, gave money and time…. if I joined ministries and in the end, I was left with doubt…. I had ADHD, depression, anxiety disorder, epilepsy, OCD (quite serious) I took 8 different meds 4X a day and I could not find my joy. I just simply gave up…. I said Lord this is me, I'm whacked, I'm a lousy Christian with a lousy testimony….
but I remembered a vision He'd given me years earlier when I was addicted to drugs (meth)… I told Him (young in the Lord) I was going to hell bc I couldn't stop doing drugs… but I would be the only one there that still loved Him… He gave me a vision He was reaching out for me and He said… but "I won't let you". That was all… He wouldn't let me…. He delivered me from drugs that day… completely. so then its a few years later I still can't meet my own standards for a 'good' Christian… so Ok Lord its on You…. I couldn't do "IT"
This is about 15 years ago. I wrapped myself in His righteousness, literally, I pull Him around me and I prayed in the Spirit everyday. I accepted who and or what I was in the Lord and that He would make up the difference…. after a awhile… I think maybe 6-8 months... I'm walking down the steps in my house when I realize, I've arrived… there I was... no meds, no carnal addictions, life was steady…. I was steady… no depression…. and just this littlest amount of joy that seemed to be following me wherever I go….I'm like wow Lord I'm where I had prayed to be for so many years…. and a little voice says, this is the beginning…. lol.
I was saved, the first day I asked Jesus to be Lord and Savior, I am not more saved today…. I have absolutely nothing to offer Him but a headache… but He loved me anyway…. I could not over come, but He loved me anyway…. I could not forgive others, but He loved me anyway….
Today my gift to His church… I am an encourager…. its just something He puts in me… almost impossible for me not to encourage people to draw close to Jesus… don't clean yourself up… draw close to Him… He does the cleaning…
I was saved while I was a Mormon
I was saved while I was a drug addict
I was saved after I tried to commit suicide
I was saved bc He saved me, I did not save myself… my righteousness is His….
now as far as all the holy stuff you talk about… pleassssse thats the easy stuff… I'm old, I don't get a carnal thought hardly ever….. I forgive people before they ask and I have forgiven and even pray for those that abused me, my daughter, and the guy who murdered my best friend…. none of that makes me holy…. the presence of Christ in me is my holiness….
when the CHURCH gets it… gets it!!!! He is OUR HOLINESS!!!, HE IS OUR RIGHTEOUSNESS!!!!! and yes I am hollering but it is a joyful yell… I am so in love with Jesus bc He loved me while I was not lovable, while I was not walking in holiness… He loved me first….
The process of justification and sanctification is another process… when you walk in His righteousness then you can be used of Him for His work… and only then. While you die to yourself and find more of Him… less of me more of Him.
The work of the cross was so big, so magnificent,… so…. there are no words to explain what He accomplished on the cross but it is bigger then my sin and all the worlds sin put together…. 'it is finished'…... its done. You or I can not add one twit to anything He has done… so although I believe in good works… they are not making me good… they are making me more like Him. They are demonstrating to the world that Jesus lives!! bc He lives in me…they can see… bc He lives in me I desire righteousness
My good works don't make me more saved…. my denomination, my theology, my doctrine, my behavior does not make me more or less saved…. as long as I am 'faithing' in Him I am His…. bc He said so… bc He won't let me fail….
bc "it is finished".
Today I go to sleep and wake, thinking of Jesus… how precious He is… how grateful I am. His grace didn't make me sin more, it made me reverence Him who is so gracious to forgive… me who was the lousiest Christian hating atheist… He loved me even then…..she who is forgiven much loves much….
I don't think the church needs to get more holy I think it needs to have more gratitude for His holiness. It needs to be thirsty for Him…. only then will they become more like him and their desire will be toward Him, their righteousness
God bless, andrea
As the deer pants after the water brooks, so pants my soul after You, O God.” Psalm 42:1.